Sunday in the PICU

Last night is one of those nights we'd rather forget. In the world of parenting, there's nothing more difficult than seeing your child suffer, and worrying that you may be sharing your last moments together.

Natalie enjoying the cannula and a snuggle from Daddy before a scary night

It started out all right. It was my turn to spend the night in Natalie's hospital room. We have been alternating since her hospitalization began so that at least one parent can get a somewhat restful night of sleep. Perry had just left, and Natalie was doing really well. Soon after, though, she started dropping her numbers and couldn't seem to get a good breath in anymore.

I called Perry to get back to the hospital so I wouldn't have to make any big decisions on my own. He raced back (he adds: shaking the whole way) and made it in time to see her really struggling. We knew at that point that there was no way we could get around it: Natalie really needed to be intubated. The thought of it is terrifying--and it brings with it a new set of concerns and risks. At that point, though, it was apparent that she just was wearing out. Coughing and breathing was too difficult to do on her own anymore.

Breathing tube inserted (successfully!)

I'm pretty sure I promised Natalie a pony for her birthday if she could make it through the night. Do you think Daddy will make it happen?

Today, she's resting peacefully, although she still needs quite a bit of oxygen to keep her sats up. We're hoping a couple of days of "hibernation" on the tube will help her rest those lungs and start breathing more effectively on her own. It's so nice to see her breathing comfortably, even if it is artificially.

She even had a couple of visitors today, and she acknowledges everyone who stops by, even if it's only by opening her eyes.

Talking to Grandma Lori

Uncle Steve gave her a big kiss this morning

The good news is that the pneumonia is really not the biggest issue anymore...the bad news is that her lungs need a lot of support. The road home will be a long and winding one, but we're in no hurry.

You're lifting her up with your prayers. It's amazing the number of people who are praying for her. Thank you for every single prayer; it means the WORLD to us.

Last night reminds me of the quote from Apollo 13:

NASA Director: This could be the worst disaster NASA's ever faced.

Gene Kranz: With all due respect, sir, I believe this is gonna be our finest hour.

Last night could have been a horrible night for our family, but it ended up showing us once again just what this little girl is made of. And while I'd rather forget it, I know it's just another incredible chapter in Natalie's life story.